First time away from Zoey

We left Zoey for the first time today now that she is fiber months old. We didn't leave her for long. Tanner's mom came to watch her while tanner and I went out to lunch for about an hour at one o'clock. I left a little bit of pumped milk just in case she got hungry, but she didn't really drink any, maybe a teeny bit. I think she did fine. Carolee said she did cry, but she was able to get her calmed down. I think it was good for us to have some tune apart. Our at least good that tanner and I could be alone and that she could spend some time and get comfortable with her grandma.

This seemed to work. We might make it a weekly thing.  the thing that really makes me nervous is being gone when she needs to sleep. I am afraid that no one else will be able to put her to sleep. Nights are the biggest weakness - I guess you could say- that I have. This is the hardest time to get het to sleep and it's usually not very easy to keep her asleep either. I always just let her suck nurse for the majority of the night to keep her asleep. No one else can do that.  It would be nice if I could figure out another way though so that tanner and I could go places at night sometimes. One step at a time right

Second year of marriage

This year has been very eventful. We have not done as much traveling as last year, mostly because we have been too busy with other big events. I can hardly remember the things we have done because it had been quite hectic. You can see pictures on our Flickr account.

We found out I was pregnant very soon after our 1st anniversary. Zoey Mae Cox was born May 6th, 2013.

I turned 21 and Tanner,  26.

Tanner graduated Utah State University with a bachelor's degree in mechanical engineering.

Tanner quite his job at Space Dynamics Laboratory as a mechanical engineering student to work with Cameron and Josh on some websites, namely Flight Stimulation Pilot Ship (FSPS) at the moment.

I quite my job at The Pointe Apartments and am working as a mom at home.

We moved from an apartment in Logan, Utah to a house in West Jordan, Utah (still renting).

We bought a family car. A red 2010 Honda CRV.

Actually all of this stuff happened within about 3 months. The rest of the 9 months have been dedicated and building up to these particular 3 months. A couple other things that happened are...
We took a trip to St George just before Christmas.

We bought a pass of all passes to go to seven peaks and other fun things for a whole year. So far we have used our and gone to seven peaks one time.

Tanner helped Josh Cox's family move from Spanish Fork to another, new house in Spanish Fork.

We went to Island Park, ID with the Cox family. Even enjoyed a teeny bit of wake boarding and water skiing.

Goodbye old life

September 2, 2013

Today I am grieving my old life again. After a breakfast party with the Cox family, tanner went off with his brother and dad to play golf. I am a little upset, not just because I feel abandoned without any notice, but mostly because I so badly miss the old days when I could go out and do things. I knew I would miss the spontaneity of our lives. I knew we wouldn't be able to decide to go camping on a whim any more. But I didn't expect my whole life: likes, dislikes, emotions, and activities would be washed away completely into Zoey's life. My life is gone now, just peeking vaguely through her existence. I am sad about that. I wish I was able to go out with my friends at least, since I dont have sisters. Now I can't even let Zoey out of my arms without feeling anxious. I don't know what to do with free arms anymore. I guess I just feel like I don't have any balance in my life between work and play. I am just tired of my emotions, of being cooped up, of being the only one that can really care for Zoey.

It's A GIrl!

We found out the sex of our baby on Tuesday. It is a girl! It was really neat to see the ultrasound of her.  The doctor said that everything with her growth looks normal and healthy.  We got to see her vertebrae, arms, legs, and some organs.  She has four chambers in her heart like she is supposed to.  There are some pictures of the ultra sound on facebook if you are interested.  The ultrasound tech said she is about the size of a can of pop right now.  They moved her due date back three days to May 1st. I am excited that we are half way through this thing.  Although it has been so very much easier lately, I would still rather not have something growing inside me all the time.  I like to be able to do things myself without being really worn out or in pain, which I can't always exactly do right now.

I feel her kicking and swimming all the time now.  She is usually most active right when I get off of work. It feels kinda like the butterflies and kinda like a muscle twitch.  The further along I get though, the more it is just a feeling of its own.  Nothing is really like it.

20 Weeks Pregnant and other news

Half way today. 20 weeks along.  Things are great.  I can feel the baby movin around all the time now.  Tanner has even felt it now. It took a while for him to be able to feel it because every time I would tell him to feel, the baby would stop kicking.  It is really cool to be able to feel movements inside of me that are coming from someone else's body.  We find out the sex of the baby in 2 days.  Oh boy! or girl... I am excited to see an ultrasound of the little one.  

In other news, finals are this week.  I lucked out this semester to only have to worry about one.  My classes are now over! I am so happy that I don't have to go to a 7:30 class in the morning.  Tanner and I have spent all day studying today.  Tanner has more studying to come with other tests throughout the week.  The Christmas break will be happily welcomed.  We will be taking a very small vacation/ baby moon to St. George the weekend before Christmas.  If it were an ideal world, we would be taking a long, exotic vacation to the Bahama's or somewhere of the like to both celebrate the coming of our new baby and to relax for the last time before it is born. But time, school, work, and funds won't permit, sadly.  

This is me and my belly growth today at 20 weeks along.  I really hope that I don't have to double in size in the next 20 weeks. :)